It’s been a minute since I’ve written last.
First there was Covid. Then there was a Graduate School thesis. Then there was the emotional recovery from writing a graduate school thesis. Every day, there was a new and different excuse not to write a snack blog and before long it had been months since I’d posted last. An embarrassing number of months.
If I wanted a superficial reason, I’d say that it’s because I went back home to the US and Cool Ranch Doritos are not as fun to write about. But that’s a bit of a cop-out. After all, there’s a lot that you can say about Cool Ranch Doritos.
The real truth is, in this moment of in-betweenness (between grad school, the Corona, the elections, and several moves) I’ve gotten stuck in “a think.” I’ve been caught up reflecting on my life, and figuring out what I want out of the next unit of living.
I started this blog so that I could make a habit of writing, and at first, that habit was hard. It took me ages to write a few paragraphs that I was never really happy with. I would lie awake at night, worrying about the blogs I had posted. What if people didn’t like them? What if they weren’t good? What if I was making a fool of myself?
Now – 300 blogs later – I feel different. I don’t lose sleep over writing anymore. I don’t struggle through description, agonizing over every word. I don’t panic that I am not good enough. With practice, the writing became easier. And with practice, sharing it became easier, too. I had people tell me they liked my writing, and that felt good. I had people tell me that they didn’t like my writing, and that didn’t feel bad.
And now that I am here, in this new and wonderful place this blog has led me, and I wonder if it has served its purpose? If I should close up shop and move on to other projects on my list? Should I cast off into new directions that challenge me the way this blog challenged me at the start? Or should I keep on with this fun little blog – not for the art, but for the joy?
And after a great deal of hemming and hawing and making no headway at all, I turned to the wisdom of an Old El Paso at-home taco kit commercial:
“Why not both?”
And so, I think I’ll keep at this snack blog for now – for the simple reason that I like it. I enjoy having an excuse to go out and try all the weirdest foods that I can find. And maybe I won’t be able to post as often as I used to, but that’s OK. Once a week is certainly better than the past few months have offered!
And at the same time, I’ll also start off on a new blogging project: https://alkaseltzerwillfixit.com. This blog will focus on longer-form short stories from my life – weekly posts about the many odd and silly things that have happened to me (and where I attempt to be funny with mixed success).
So, on to the next great adventure. Maybe I’ll succeed. Maybe I’ll fail. Maybe Big Dorito will come after me and I’ll end up in all the papers. We’ll just have to see. Perfection has never been my strong suit. (Consistency is even a a stretch). So best I can do is to give it a go, and hope that 300 blogs from now, I’m a little better than when I started.
Thank you again to everyone who has read my blog so far. Every day, you’ve helped me become a better version of myself!